I guess lately I have been kind of evaluating my actions. I think I made a monumental mistake today. I shared my equation with one of my smaller classes. I remember being a little embarrassed when I shared it. I hadn't realized how much I beat myself up until right then and there. I think its at the point where I have to repent. I may not feel like God made me beautiful, but He did. To say otherwise, would be denying His love in my life. I'm not saying that my feelings are invalid, but that when I feel my worst, like my giant carcass is the most disgusting thing to grace the planet, I have to realize that it is a lie and the truth is that God made me beautiful. Why is it so hard to believe this truth?
Now that I think about it, it is the whole reason I was embarrassed about sharing the equation. The equation doesn't take God into consideration. It's based on human to human interactions. Just because a person hasn't been pursued doesn't make them unattractive. Attractiveness as a concept should be an individual thing. Not to mention, that attraction can also grow with time. I think our society is so focused on physical attraction we have become shallow. It's the only thing we see. We forget that behind this house of flesh is a soul. A soul that shouldn't be measured by any means. I'm not saying that we completely look past our human reactions to what God made beautiful on the outside, but that we not place it so high on our list of social priorities. That we consider that our bodies are not the only thing that make us human. That we are mind, body, and soul.
-Phoenix
