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"Little girl I say to you arise" 

These are the words Jesus spoke to a girl that had breathed her last well before He had arrived on the scene. 

Yesterday Pastor Lynn asked us in simple words as a new church how we would handle a family who was suffering through the circumstance of having a brain dead child. I volunteered that we should make sure their needs are met (i.e. cooking for them, cleaning their house). Someone else said we should help with their expenses. Another said that we should pray that God would give them peace in this time of trouble. After a couple more suggestions Pastor Lynn simply said, "why don't we prevent all that, and just raise the dead." 

It wasn't until right then that I realized how weak my faith was. How true it was that the God that lives in us is more than powerful to not only raise the dead, but to form complex life out of the dust. If we were to follow Jesus' example, He did not merely say, "Can I help you with the funeral plans." He said, "Arise." Further, He also said that we would do greater things. So I ask, why do we not see these greater things? Not because the Word is wrong! Far from it! We do not have, because we do not ask. We suffer from "peon syndrome." We feel that we are nothings and that God wouldn't bother to even incline His ear to hear our simple quiet prayers. 

I can't explain the miracle God has been doing in my heart for the past month or two. He has restored to me all that I have lost. He has wooed my heart and I am falling fast. I can't even wrap my brain around what I feel. The point is... I feel. I no longer serve the god of the numb. I'm no longer living in my self imposed isolation. It is as if God spoke to my spirit and said.... arise. I'm not afraid or embarrassed to ask anymore. God loves me. He LOVES me. I may not understand it, but it's the one certain thing I cling to right now. If there has been anything I have learned this past weekend, it is to ask. So what are you waiting for? Ask :D