on my current self esteem issues

so basically i have pretty crappy self esteem, and for good reason. i have never been on a date, had a boyfriend, or anything close to a boyfriend who wanted to actually admit it, and i have never been kissed.  i guess sometimes i have a hard time because it seems like the only people that say i am pretty are the mentally deranged, the elderly, family or people that see me as family, and painfully patronizing females. there have been maybe one ore two exceptions, but they were those kind of people that can find beauty in dirt. which basically leaves me feeling like there is something horribly wrong with me. i can count on one hand when i have liked someone who liked me back. i can also use one hand to count the number of males that have followed through and actually told me they found me attractive in a non sisterly kind of way, after i finished counting that first part. 

i know i am not ugly per se. i just feel ugly, or like there is something wrong with me. maybe im such a pill that guys see me and want to run the other way. it feels like maybe the very core of who i am is unattractive to sane human males my age. yup that about sums it up, who i am is unattractive. its the only explanation. the other theory is that God has basically put an ugly bubble around me to "protect" me, and i just have to wait for prince charming to pop it. right now this ugly bubble looks pretty impenetrable. its gonna take a superhero.